It is that time of year again when we make those New Years resolutions. I think I have resolved to lose weight every years since I was 13. Didn't work out too well, although I am eight pounds lighter than I was this time last year. I'm going to call that a success. I always strive to be a better housekeeper. We are going to put that in the failure column. Every year I am going to have an amazing garden. Well it is a garden, but I wouldn't look too closely. There are more weeds than intentional plants. I won't call that a success or a failure. I love my garden as if it was a person pretty flowers and weedy mess.
This year I want to go about this resolution business a little differently. I have a couple of bad thought habits. I tend to regret the past and worry about the future rather than living and thinking in the present. This year, I hope to break these habits. Regret and worry do not serve me well. Being with myself right here and right now in the present is what I need. So it won't be about how I will be thin in the future. It will be about what I eat and how I exercise now. I won't think about the garden that will be or regretting the neglect that lead to the current state of disgrace. It will be about the gardening I will do today. I won't worry about how hard it will be get the book written. I will just write or edit a little today. It won't be imagining when I will be able to speak that second language or why I haven't learned it yet. It will be about the work I do on that language today. It won't be about my misspent youth, it will be about my happy middle age.